To say that this week didn’t exactly go as planned would be an understatement. While there were multiple unfortunate circumstances that arose, one of the ones that affected me the most was finding out that I can no longer leave for Germany when I had planned. Let me explain… Back at the end of June [...]
Throw the covers over my head
Finding comfort in my own bed
Staring at a screen light,
Looking at the highlights, everybody's good life
Reminding me of what I don't have
Second guessing who I really am
Maybe I should give up,
Will I ever measure up, I don't think I'm good enough
Pressure building, body shaking
I can't take it, I can't take it
Feel the tension, pushing pulling
I can't fight it, I can't fight it
I don't wanna live my life like this
Anxious
I gotta lot of good in me to give
But I'm anxious
So many things I know I miss
Cause I'm anxious
I wish I could shake this
I don't wanna be anxious
Devil's running around my mind
Why do I let myself believe the lies
It's like I'm his playground,
Push me in the background, and I shut the world out
Pressure building, body shaking
I can't take it, I can't take it
Feel the tension, pushing pulling
I can't fight it, I can't fight it
I don't wanna live my life like this
Anxious
I gotta lot of good in me to give
But I'm anxious
So many things I know I miss
Cause I'm anxious
I wish I could shake this
I don't wanna be anxious
Oh oh oh
This is my confession
Oh oh oh
I'm coming out of hiding
Oh oh oh
Oh, his is my confession
Oh oh oh
I'm coming out of hiding
Can't keep living like this, living like this
Oh oh oh
I'm coming out, I'm coming out
Oh oh oh
Oh, this is my confession
Oh oh oh
I'm coming out of hiding
Cause I don't wanna live my life like this
Anxious
I gotta lot of good in me to give
But I'm anxious
So many things I know I miss
Cause I'm anxious
I wish I could shake this
I don't wanna be anxious ~Anxious by @sarahreevesmusic
This song perfectly sums up the way that I've been feeling the past couple days. And because of sudden overwhelming anxiety I'm taking an undetermined amount of time away from social media. We've all heard it before, that mental health is more important than "likes" and followers, but you don't realize just how important it is until you're no longer at peace. Don't be afraid to set boundaries and respect yourself enough to say "no" to things that are causing you pain. ❤
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I interrupted my regularly scheduled horse/book posts to remind you that dogs are wonderful animals and they make my day so much better.
Exhibit A: my face in the first photo ❤🐶 #simplykatherina #dogsofinstagram #barndog #notmydogbutilovehim #bestdayever
My favourite rides are the ones where my horse and I are so in sync that all I have to use is my legs and seat, with minor rein correction, to steer. Those rides are so relaxing and remind me why I love riding ❤
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I have a soft spot for working with anxious horses. I love seeing them build their trust and confidence, and I love watching them become a more balanced horse in every sense of the word. I think I have this soft spot because I understand how they're feeling.
There are times when I feel so overwhelmed by anxiety that I can't even figure out why I'm feeling the way I am. Instead of stepping back and sorting out where my prideful nature is trying to take control and turning to God for His love and grace... I stuff it all deep down inside of my heart and continue on full speed ahead.
So it's no surprise when that anxiety festers and grows inside of me until I can feel my heart rapidly beating inside my chest, but I just push those feelings deep down as well. Sometimes I don't even realise how anxious I am until my horses run away from me because I don't feel like a safe person to be around. 😖
It's hard to admit, but when I bury that anxiety deeper and deeper, I'm failing to notice the warning signs it leaves behind. Warning signs that point to a disconnect between my heart and God's, between how I'm currently living my life and how He has called me to live.
Taking a breath to find out what's actually going on, and to get to the root cause of anxiety can help you create a battle plan for the next time it decides to come knocking. Just like an anxious horse, if we do the hard work we can have confidence in who God created us to be, and trust that we can leave it all in His hands.
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To add on to my previous post, having friends who bake heart shaped cookies and decorate them with your name makes my Valentine's 100% complete.
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Horse kisses and chocolate bars, that's all I need to make my Valentine's Day a success 😘 (AND hanging out with friends 😉) #simplykatherina #horsesofinstagram #equestriansofinstagram #valentinesday2020 #horsekisses
