I am being haunted by Why’s, Why this? Why me? Why now? And they chase me down and create a tightness in my chest, Suffocating me. Preventing me from seeing happiness, From being able to bear the sight of it at all. Why are other people so happy when all I feel is despair? [...]
I have a soft spot for working with anxious horses. I love seeing them build their trust and confidence, and I love watching them become a more balanced horse in every sense of the word. I think I have this soft spot because I understand how they're feeling.
There are times when I feel so overwhelmed by anxiety that I can't even figure out why I'm feeling the way I am. Instead of stepping back and sorting out where my prideful nature is trying to take control and turning to God for His love and grace... I stuff it all deep down inside of my heart and continue on full speed ahead.
So it's no surprise when that anxiety festers and grows inside of me until I can feel my heart rapidly beating inside my chest, but I just push those feelings deep down as well. Sometimes I don't even realise how anxious I am until my horses run away from me because I don't feel like a safe person to be around. 😖
It's hard to admit, but when I bury that anxiety deeper and deeper, I'm failing to notice the warning signs it leaves behind. Warning signs that point to a disconnect between my heart and God's, between how I'm currently living my life and how He has called me to live.
Taking a breath to find out what's actually going on, and to get to the root cause of anxiety can help you create a battle plan for the next time it decides to come knocking. Just like an anxious horse, if we do the hard work we can have confidence in who God created us to be, and trust that we can leave it all in His hands.
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To add on to my previous post, having friends who bake heart shaped cookies and decorate them with your name makes my Valentine's 100% complete.
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Horse kisses and chocolate bars, that's all I need to make my Valentine's Day a success 😘 (AND hanging out with friends 😉) #simplykatherina #horsesofinstagram #equestriansofinstagram #valentinesday2020 #horsekisses
What better way to spend your downtime on a work trip than to cozy up with a cup of tea and a beloved lady detective?
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So often, I find myself striving for the presence of God that I ignore the fact that He is all around me and within me. I don’t have to go anywhere. In fact, there’s nothing that I can do to enter the presence of the Lord. He has made it possible for me to have a personal relationship with him, not the other way around. I get so busy trying to perfectly align myself so that I can have a “supernatural God moment” that I fill my days with noise and chaos as I seek after the next big thing that will put me in the right spot at the right time to experience God. When I get so focused on creating the perfect space and trying to perfect myself, I forget that not only am I mercifully unable to be good enough but that I’m not the only one talking. I’m not the only one trying to connect. I’m not the only one in this relationship. God is speaking every day, but I’m so caught up in my own works that I completely ignore His whispers, His nudges, and His voice calling to my heart. I miss the holy revelations all around me. God doesn’t always speak in profound, life-shattering ways. He isn’t the thundering voice, or the rushing wind, or the shaking earth, He is the voice in the stillness. The Lord is not a God of chaos but calm.
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Do you know the song that Olaf sings in Frozen 2 about everything making sense when you're older? That's how I've been feeling the last little bit. Different things have happened and perspectives have changed, and I just keep reminding myself that this chaos will make sense when I'm older.
When we're right in the thick of it, it can be extremely hard to see how the pieces fit together. All we can see are random shapes and colours and from where we're standing it looks like a kindergartner's finger painting. However, once we're able to look back on this time in our lives we see that what we saw as nonsense is actually a beautiful work of art.
Not everything will make sense right now. Sometimes we have to wait a few year, months, weeks, days, or hours until we're older to see how God was putting everything together. "This will all make sense when I am older. Someday I will see that this makes sense. One day, when I'm old and wise I'll think back and realize, that these were all completely normal events. I'll have all the answers when I'm older" 🎵⛄ #simplykatherina #speaklife #givelife #christianliving #blogger #bloggersofinstagram #godisgood #livethelittlethings #thehappynow #frozen2 #olaf
